Life for rent ~

I haven't really ever found a place that I call home. I never stick around quite long enough to make it. I apologize that once again I'm not in love. But it's not as if I mind that your heart ain't exactly breaking. It's just a thought, only a thought. But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy. Well I deserve nothing more than I get. 'Cos nothing I have is truly mine. I've always thought that I would love to live by the sea. To travel the world alone and live more simply. I have no idea what's happened to that dream. 'Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me. It's just a thought, only a thought. But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy. Well I deserve nothing more than I get. 'Cos nothing I have is truly mine. While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down. While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try. Well how can I say I'm alive. If my life is for rent...